June 17th, 2005
help me i'm falling..
Have it ever happened to you that you suddenly fell in love
with the person whom you should not be in love with? I have a
friend and I like him. At first I thought this was just admiration
but as each day pass by this admiration of mine to him grew
bigger until I found myself loving him (not just an ordinary
good friend but more 
). I cannot just be in love with him... I
just can't. I try to ignore this person but it's really really really
hard and it really hurts me a lot 
. And I know who he loves
very much. Whenever he's far away from me I miss him and I
get hurt because I can't see him but when I'm near him I also
get hurt because I know that I'm just a friend to him and none
other than that (but I'm not complaining... I'm glad to be his
friend). Right now I'm avoiding him... I'm so so so stupid....
arrrrrrrrrrrrgghhhhh. Somebody help me I'm falling....
