Entries for August, 2006

August 4th, 2006

Prelims

       This is my first time to take prelims. Of course i'm just a freshman. Yesterday I took our Theology prelim exam. It was quite hard but I have manage to answer all the questions in the test.

       Next week. Actually this coming week we're going to take our exam in our other subjects. On Monday I'll be taking our major course subject, which is Journalism. Thank goodness and there's no classes on Tuesday. More time for me to review and study for the following prelim exams. I don't like Wednesday because we're going to take English and History (I'm not much into History). How I wish I could skip our tests on Wednesday. Thursday is quite a light day for me because we'll be taking Literature and Math. But of course I should not take advantage of this subjects though it's not as hard as the other subjects we're taking. Friday is a crucial day 'cause we are going to take PGC (Philippine Government Constitution) and Philosophy. I have a hard time in these subjects. <sigh>

        I want to pass all my exams... Help me Lord! Ok got to study guys. I don't want to cram on the day of my exams, like the way I did when I was still in highschool.

      Muahugz for everyone!!!
~~>exam ko muna poproblemahin ko bago yung ibang mga bagay like *toot*. so sad.

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August 8th, 2006

IS HE THE ONE?

I'm completely CONFUSE of how i feel right now for someone.

Someone who's very SPECIAL to me.

Someone I VALUE so much right now.

But there's SOMETHING BOTHERING me about him.

I want to ask him but SCARED to know the answer.

Is he really the right person for me? or am I just fooling myself because I want him to be the right person?

Find a guy who closes his eyes when he hugs you. Find a guys who'll patiently drive you to and from school or even wait for you. Find a guy who'll wipe your sweat with his hanky or lwt you borrow it. Find a guy who'll sing our favorite song even if he can't carry a tune, find himwho lets you rest over his shoulder, who lets you sleep on his lap and will give you the first and last bite of his burger, who'll squeeze your hand tighter when you squeezed his. Find a guy who occupies your every dream and when you find him, never let him go...

 HAVE I REALLY FOUND THAT PERSON?

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August 14th, 2006

--nO tItLe--

DAMN!!!!

I WANT TO CRY SO HARD!!!!...

BUT NO TEARS ARE FALLING FROM MY EYES

B.S THIS FEELING I HAVE!!!!

WHY.................????!!!!!

HOW...............???!!!!

WHAT.................???!!!!

WHEN..................???!!!!

SO MANY QUESTIONS RUNNING THROUGH MY MIND AND STILL SEARCHING FOR THOSE ANSWERS...

BUT I HAVE TO BE STRONG!!!

MY LIFE IS WORTH LIVING FOR....

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August 16th, 2006

my not so lucky day...

          Sometimes we have to experience something unusual in our usual days. It can be bad and sometimes worst... nah... just kidding... it's either a bad one or a good one.

           Yesterday I woke up so early to be able to finish the project in Lit, with my groupmates, but there were obstacles that came our way. It's kind of a bull shit! The project will be submitted that same day so we were cramming in doing it. How can you finish a music video when you are only given a week, and within that week is your prelims? Damn! It was so hard. That morning we weren't able to finish the video so we decided that we'll just finish it in the afternoon.

            After the meeting with my groupmates, I went to SM San Lazaro because I'm going to buy something there. My friend, Dianne, went with me. It was raining then and when I was about to use my umbrella it got wrecked. Damn! I had a paper bag with me and a small bag pack... you'll understand why i included this info here later on. Upon going back to school we took the jeep and then walked in streets of Espana (the walk-way in UST Espana). While walking, the paper bag that I was carrying was torn and all the things I had in that paper bag fell all over that walk-way. Dianne helped pick all the things that fell from my bag and there were some nice people who also helped me as well. Dianne went back to her dorm first and I went back to the condo (Dianne's dorm and the condo where am at is next to each other, and it's along P.Noval). We decided to go to school together. Since it rained hard that morning the streets were wet. When we were walking going to school, I suddenly fell in the ground and a lot of people saw it. How can my day gets worst? I was so embarass that moment.

 
             Let's skip some parts.

             That afternoon/night of the same day is the Award's Night of Artistang Artlets. I was excused from 4pm-7pm (my class yesterday is from 1pm-7pm). I had to wore something fabulous and fixed myself. Some of my classmates helped me with my make up, but when the professor came, I had to leave the classroom and fix myself alone. I went to the washroom and Jzan was there (one of the people that will attend the Award's Night too and my good/close friend as well). Jzan and I fixed ourselves and we look superb. We headed to the Rizal Con. where the Award's Night will be held that night. When we were inside I was looking for my cell phone and could not find anywhere in my things. Jzan also look into her things but found nothing.

              Ate M.M, one of the members of Artistang Artlet, found about what had happened to my phone. I had a guess that I forgot it in the washroom while we were making ourselves so gorgeous... hahaha. Ate M.M let me borrow her phone that moment to call my phone. It rang and someone answered it. Thank goodness and the one who got my cell phone was so nice that she returned it to me at once. I was about to cry that time but I was so relieved when my phone was in my hands again.

               My day started as something I don't expect it to be but ended so good too.

 

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August 18th, 2006

i'm such a cry baby

         I woke up very early today because... just leave it to me.=) My day started good but afterwards it starts to become cranky.

         One of my closest friend in the classroom is completely ignoring me. There's bitterness in our relationship now as friends. I am so sad about it because he is saying some things behind my back. I want to reconcile with him but it seems that he's not open to it. I went to my bestfriend's room since our room is only a few steps from their room (*thank goodness and my bestfrien and i are in the same university, same bldg., same floor, and same sched.). I told her how I feel and how depressed I am that time (*and still depress right now). I cried infront of my bestfriend. I'm not used that someone is mad at me especially when it's someone very close to me, and I'm not used in being mad to someone. I just don't like the feeling. I cry very easily. I may be shallow in these things but I'm a very deep and open minded person.

         Another incident happened in our classroom and it involves me of course. Ralph, one of my closest classmates in our room sprayed perfume on my eyes. We were joking around and suddenly he sprayed perfume on my eyes (as a joke???) and I cried. By the way, we didn't have any prof. that time. Almost all of our classmates saw what had happened and saw me crying like a gradeschool student.They got mad at Ralph and told him to apologize. He did apologized to me (*he even texted me tonight). He was so sorry about it. He told me that he didn't mean doing that to me. I'm still not talking to him.


          I cried once again tonight when I got back here at the condo from school (*by the way, we (artistang artlets) had our pictorial from 6-9pm... I just want to share). I am so sad because I miss someone so much. We are in the same building and I see him almost everyday but I miss the times that... never mind... those times. Everything has changed between us. Why does he have to do this to me??? <sigh>


I'M AN OUTCAST!!!!!!

I FEEL SO DUMB!!!!!!

I WANT THIS ANXIETY TO END!!!!!!
 
I FEEL SO USELESS...
 
 

 

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