Entries for March, 2008

March 3rd, 2008

Ne-Yo concert with my girl (?)

I'm torn in between because Juliean, the girl who's "courting" me but looks like more girly than I am, bought tickets for the Ne-Yo concert. I did not tell her to buy me one but she did. It was Thursday night when she asked me if I'm going to watch Ne-Yo's concert since I was so desperate to see it then I told her that I'm not coming because I don't have any money yet. "I thought you love Ne-Yo.", she asked. And I definitely said yes but I also told her that it was ok. The next day, she asked me if I'm coming to Ne-Yo's concert if I had a ticket and I'm not that crazy if I said no. Suddenly she told me that she bought tickets for the both of us. My only problem is, how can I tell Raffy that I can't spend time with him that same night because I'm going out with someone else. Raffy is the guy who's courting me as well. The bad part is I haven't told any stories about Juliean to Raffy and Raffy to Juliean but that isn't two-timing since I'm not in a relationship with anyone yet. I just told Raffy that my dad bought me tickets to Ne-Yo's concert and that I'm going out with my friends.

Before Juliean and I met, I got a couple of things I need to do and it would be handful if I would state it one by one. To make the story short, I decided to meet Juliean that evening at Gateway. She was waiting for me in Taco Bell and of course, I was late. It was 7:30 p.m. then she told me that one of her friends, Shayne, would be coming too. It wasn't a big deal for me since my ticket was only for free c/o Juliean. We went to Starbucks Araneta to wait for her friend and she was asking me if I want something. I declined the offer because the ticket was enough and she does not need to spend more money on me. I had a couple of cigarettes too while we're waiting for Shayne and she arrived at around 8 p.m. Moving forward, we entered the dome and the artist we catch peforming was Kris Lawrence. There were a couple of artists who performed as well before Ne-Yo.

It was around 9:20 p.m. when Ne-Yo showed up and everyone was screaming and I was holding back because I was with Juliean and her friend. They weren't that interested in Ne-Yo and Juliean just watch it for me. Ne-Yo's dancers whom he calls them "sexy loves" was great and Ne-Yo's band as well. Well, that evening we find out that one of Omarion's song was composed by Ne-Yo and one of Rihanna's song with the lyrics "i don't want to do this anymore, I don't want to be the reason why..", Hate that I love you, Irreplaceable by Beyonce was his art as well. I recorded when Ne-Yo sang "Go On Girl" and I sang with it. It is my favorite song as of the moment. There's so much energy and fun that happened during that concert. "THIS IS MY FIRST TIME IN THE PHILIPPINES BUT DEFINITELY NOT THE LAST SO EXPECT ME TO BE BACK.", Ne-Yo shouted it to the audience and the crowd cheered for him. It was 10:30 p.m. when Ne-Yo left the stage and the people start to dispurse the dome.

Since Shayne and Juliean were hungry, we decided to eat at Oyster Boy, just across Araneta. We had squid, clam, and lechon kawali. I did not eat that much since I wasn't that hungry at all. After having a hearty meal, Shayne was fetched by some of their friends becuase they still have a gimik along Tomas Morato. Juliean and I left the place after Shayne had gone. We're in the same direction so Juliean and I went home together but she was the first one who left the public commuter vehicle. I stayed at our condo in P. Noval  Street along Espanya street and she's in Maceda Street along Espanya too. She stayed at her cousin's house and she thought of going home in the morning since she lives in Valenzuela.

I had a great time during Ne-Yo's concert and hanging out with Juliean. Thank you!

Posted by joesie at 02:29 AM | shout it out guys!

Who's BI/GAY/DIKE?

DON'T BE AFRAID TO COME OUT OF YOUR SHELLS IF YOU HAVEN'T! BE PROUND TO BE ONE!

CONFESS YOURSELF!=)

I AM A BI!!! SO WHAT????

*let's make a group... what do you think?

Currently listening to: Go On Girl
Currently feeling: bouncy
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March 7th, 2008

BAD KARMA

I never thought "bad" karma would enter my life right now because there are a lot of good things that are happening; after 8 months of not talking to my mom, we have reconciled recently and our relationship just got better, I got to watch Ne-Yo's concert live, and I got my friends back.

I got two suitors or let's say flings; one is a girl and one is a guy. I have mentioned their names already on my past entries but still I'll give them alias names in this entry. The girl is "Buttercup" and the guy is "Dexter." Cartoon Network characters, I know! Lol.

Buttercup does not know Dexter and vice versa as well. I never mentioned their names to any of them. Whenever I'm with any of them, they were the ones who spend money for me like Buttercup would usually treat me out for a lunch or dinner or Starbucks. On the other hand, Dexter pays for the things I wanted to buy in the mall. Don't get me wrong, I'm not taking advantage of them and sometimes I would decline their offer but they would insist. If I ran out of load, I'll text both of them before my credits expires that I will not be able to text. If Dexter would pass me a load, I'll text him and then wait for Buttercup to give me a load. I'll not text Buttercup yet even though Dexter had given me a load already and wait for her to give me one until I began texting her again. It wasn't my fault and I wasn't expecting either... the firs few moments they did that but in the long run, I can say that I was expecting because I was used to it. I know how bad it is. Added to this, Buttercup payed for my Ne-Yo tickets. I did not tell her to buy me one, she asked me if I already have a ticket to Ne-Yo's concert since I am so addictive to Ne-Yo. I told her that I don't have enough money to buy one and I was surprised that she bought tickets the next day so we went together.

 Last March 4 (Tuesday), I met up with Buttercup just for lunch at Gateway. She decided to watch a movie entitled Jumper. I told her that I got a few things to do and she told me that it would only took a few hours of my time so I agreed. While watching the movie with her, I was texting Dexter. Dexter got mad because I was watching movie with a friend; I told her that it was a girl and I guess this guy has this so-called "woman insticts" and totally forgot that I told her that I was a bi. After the movie, Buttercup and I went to Starbucks. We had some arguements so she decided to go home and I texted my friends to come over. I told them the whole scenario and laughed about it a bit. How mean I am.

The following day, both of them were not texting me. To make the story short, they both left me alone! NO! I can't believe it. Now, the two of them are gone. I apologized to them and that is when I realized that I had fallen for one of them, Dexter.

THIS IS WHAT I CALLED (BAD) KARMA!

Posted by joesie at 12:51 PM | 1 so what you think?

March 15th, 2008

FIRST LOVE (narrative article)

THIS WAS MY FINAL PAPER FOR THE SECOND SEMESTER IN MY MAJOR WHICH IS JOURNALISM. I JUST FEEL LIKE POSTING IT HERE IN MY BLOG. WE WERE REQUIRED TO MAKE A NARRATIVE ARTICLE. *i don't want to post my commentary article about the impeachment about PGMA and my news article about the ZTE-NBN scandal.  

First Love: A memory you can always look back
By: Joselle Andrea Credo
 

Have you ever been in love? Do you still remember the first time you felt it? Everyone has experience falling in love with someone, one way or the other. Is it a splendid feeling, but as the elders would say, being in love is the most wonderful feeling but once you get hurt, it is the most painful one.

Recalling the memories of my first love made me snigger a bit, because when I lost my first love I thought my whole world was falling apart.

“Hey. How did your day went? I miss you a lot. Try to call you later.” The usual message I get from Nep, my first love. We have been friends for five months and within that span of time we have learned to have mutual feelings for one another. Most of the time when he would call me, either he is in a band practice since he is the bass guitarist or driving heading to his school. I cannot forget the time he serenaded me on the phone having his band as his companions. 

The first time I invited Nep at our house was very nerve racking since I have never brought a guy to our house until that time. Being at an exclusive all girls school for almost nine years that period made the moment more terrifying. I familiarized him to my mother, siblings, and grandparents as well; unfortunately my father was still at work. Everything went well and my mom was so warm to him although a few questions were enquired.

My mom decided to get Nep some snacks since the maids have not prepared some. “Thanks mommy.”, Nep intently shouts as my mom walks away from us and I pinched him straight away.

There was complete silence between the two of us when we were left alone in the living room. He stared at me and I try not to gawp at him so I decided to read some magazines.   I suddenly started the conversation by saying: “Want to hear a funny joke?” We had fun exchanging jokes until a question stopped my laughter.

“Would you be my girlfriend?”,  he asked.
 

I was in complete jolt and suddenly he held my hand and told it was alright if I cannot answer the question. We halted for a certain point and then started to babble again.

Nep was about to leave the house when he insisted me to come with him until to the gate of our house. I said my parting words to him but then he stopped me and got something from his car. He let me closed my eyes and when I opened them, I saw him with a bear on his right hand a bouquet on the other hand.
 

“Now we can say our goodbyes.”, he said with all smiles and hugged me as tight as he can.
 

Ever since that day, he would come to visit me at our house once a week and my feelings for him grow fonder.

After a few months of visit, he suddenly stopped going to my place and at the same time I have not received any messages or calls from him. There was no communication for weeks although I try to reach his cell phone and landline but they were not in use any longer.

I tried to be strong and told myself that he would be back. During these times, I realized that I have fallen for him.
 

Surprisingly one Thursday afternoon, Nep called and justified that his phone was wrecked and have not called me for days because of his studies. He promised me that he would call back again and visit me that coming Saturday. I waited for his comeback call until Friday night but he did not give me a call. I did not lose hope and I hold on to his promise that he will visit me that Saturday so I waited for him the whole day staring at the window, but then no trace of him came into sight.
 

I was in despair that time that I cry every almost night. It took me two years to get going to my feelings towards him.
 

I have fallen in love with other people as well after ignoring the feeling I have for him. Funny it is, because after three more years I met him again.
 

“I cannot believe I had fallen for this person.”, I told myself when I saw him again.
 

Love is something you cannot run away from but something that will set as a lesson for you, whether you get hurt or get the best out of it.

Posted by joesie at 03:39 AM | shout it out guys!

HOPING TO COME BACK

It's been months when I thought of downloading this song from LimeWire but this was the only day I get to do that. IT MADE ME REMEMBER OF A CERTAIN PERSON AND IT MADE ME CRY. *it's not "buttercup" or "dexter" either or my first love (since that was my entry before this one). Just someone who would not give me a second chance. ALL THE MEMORIES CAME BACK INCLUDING THE PAIN! 

LISTEN/READ THE LYRICS CAREFULLY!

 WAIT FOR YOU - Elliot Yamin

I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'M MISSING YOU 
& I'm wishing that you would COME BACK through my door
Why did you have to go? You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone,
Girl (Guy) you could have stayed
but YOU WOULDN'T GIVE ME A CHANCE
               With you not around it's a little bit more then i can stand

And ALL MY TEARS THEY KEEP RUNNING DOWN MY FACE
Why did you turn away?

[Bridge]

So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you wanted to be

[Chorus]

So baby I WIL WAIT FOR YOU
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
IF IT TAKES THE REST OF MY LIFE

Baby I will wait for you
IF YOU THINK I'M FINE IT JUST AIN'T TRUE
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you

[Verse 2]

It's been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You got me feeling crazy (crazy)
HOW CAN YOU WALK AWAY,
Everything stays the same
I just can't do it baby
What will it take to make you come back
Girl (Guy) I told you what it is & it just ain't like that
Why can't you look at me, your still in love with me
Don't leave me crying.

[Bridge]

Baby WHY CAN'T WE JUST START OVER AGAIN
GET IT BACK TO THE WAY IT WAS
IF YOU GIVE ME A CHANCE I CAN LOVE YOU RIGHT
But your telling me it wont be enough

[Chorus]

[Bridge]

Baby I will wait for you
Baby I will wait for you
If it's the last thing i do

[Chorus]

I'll Be Waiting.

Currently listening to: Wait For You
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April 1st, 2008

Breaking up is hard to do ):

My current partner and I just broke up.

Sa kanya ko lang naramdam matakot... Dati kasi kahit may ka-relationship na ko nagagawa ko pang makipagflirt sa iba, but when he came everything changed.

Nung naging kami natakot akong gumawa ng kalokohan kahit alam kong kaya ko and hindi naman niya malalaman. Natakot kasi ako sa karma.

Sa kanya ko lang naramdaman yan!

Suddenly we broke up... just awhile ago... here I am... I can't even sleep.

Sabi nga ng bestfriend ko, "baka hindi siya para sa'yo."

I told my bestfriend na kahit hindi siya para sa akin gusto ko kasi siya na!

I found my future with him.

Ayan naiiyak na ko while writing this entry.

While thinking about him... I found this song that  fits in what I feel right now.

KAHIT 'DI SABIHIN

Kahit di mo sabihin ang nadarama sakin
Di ko na pipilitin pa
Ang iyo bang akala di ako nakakahalata

Kay sakit mang isipin na nagbago ka sakin
Pagaralan ko nang tanggapin
Kay sakit sa damdamin ang dinulot mo sakin ba't ikaw ay mahal parin.

/ref./

Ang lahat ng ating alaala'y tinangay ng hangin
Di man lang nanghinayang sa lahat ng pinagdaanan natin
Pinilit limutin ngunit ka'y bigat na sa puso'y dalhin paano na, paanong hindi ko kaya

/cho./

Alam kong sayo ay wala na sino pang minahal mong iba
Hindi pa ba sapat kahit na ginawa ko na'ng lahat
Ako ba'y nagkulang sayo bigla ka na lang nagbago
Alam mong mahal kita magpapatuloy pa ba
Masakit sa damdamin alam kong gagawin
Kahit 'di sabihin

(repeat/ref./)

(repeat/cho./)

Ikaw na rin ang tumapos satin
Ikaw nang may gustong limutin
Kailangan ko na magpaalam kung ikaw ay para sakin magbabalik karin......

(repeat/cho./)

Kahit 'di mo sabihin ang nadarama sakin 'di ko na pipilitin pa.....

Posted by joesie at 02:23 AM | 2 so what you think?