Amidst the higher gods

joesie

I never thought "bad" karma would enter my life right now because there are a lot of good things that are happening; after 8 months of not talking to my mom, we have reconciled recently and our relationship just got better, I got to watch Ne-Yo's concert live, and I got my friends back.

I got two suitors or let's say flings; one is a girl and one is a guy. I have mentioned their names already on my past entries but still I'll give them alias names in this entry. The girl is "Buttercup" and the guy is "Dexter." Cartoon Network characters, I know! Lol.

Buttercup does not know Dexter and vice versa as well. I never mentioned their names to any of them. Whenever I'm with any of them, they were the ones who spend money for me like Buttercup would usually treat me out for a lunch or dinner or Starbucks. On the other hand, Dexter pays for the things I wanted to buy in the mall. Don't get me wrong, I'm not taking advantage of them and sometimes I would decline their offer but they would insist. If I ran out of load, I'll text both of them before my credits expires that I will not be able to text. If Dexter would pass me a load, I'll text him and then wait for Buttercup to give me a load. I'll not text Buttercup yet even though Dexter had given me a load already and wait for her to give me one until I began texting her again. It wasn't my fault and I wasn't expecting either... the firs few moments they did that but in the long run, I can say that I was expecting because I was used to it. I know how bad it is. Added to this, Buttercup payed for my Ne-Yo tickets. I did not tell her to buy me one, she asked me if I already have a ticket to Ne-Yo's concert since I am so addictive to Ne-Yo. I told her that I don't have enough money to buy one and I was surprised that she bought tickets the next day so we went together.

 Last March 4 (Tuesday), I met up with Buttercup just for lunch at Gateway. She decided to watch a movie entitled Jumper. I told her that I got a few things to do and she told me that it would only took a few hours of my time so I agreed. While watching the movie with her, I was texting Dexter. Dexter got mad because I was watching movie with a friend; I told her that it was a girl and I guess this guy has this so-called "woman insticts" and totally forgot that I told her that I was a bi. After the movie, Buttercup and I went to Starbucks. We had some arguements so she decided to go home and I texted my friends to come over. I told them the whole scenario and laughed about it a bit. How mean I am.

The following day, both of them were not texting me. To make the story short, they both left me alone! NO! I can't believe it. Now, the two of them are gone. I apologized to them and that is when I realized that I had fallen for one of them, Dexter.

THIS IS WHAT I CALLED (BAD) KARMA!

joesie

DON'T BE AFRAID TO COME OUT OF YOUR SHELLS IF YOU HAVEN'T! BE PROUND TO BE ONE!

CONFESS YOURSELF!=)

I AM A BI!!! SO WHAT????

*let's make a group... what do you think?

joesie

I'm torn in between because Juliean, the girl who's "courting" me but looks like more girly than I am, bought tickets for the Ne-Yo concert. I did not tell her to buy me one but she did. It was Thursday night when she asked me if I'm going to watch Ne-Yo's concert since I was so desperate to see it then I told her that I'm not coming because I don't have any money yet. "I thought you love Ne-Yo.", she asked. And I definitely said yes but I also told her that it was ok. The next day, she asked me if I'm coming to Ne-Yo's concert if I had a ticket and I'm not that crazy if I said no. Suddenly she told me that she bought tickets for the both of us. My only problem is, how can I tell Raffy that I can't spend time with him that same night because I'm going out with someone else. Raffy is the guy who's courting me as well. The bad part is I haven't told any stories about Juliean to Raffy and Raffy to Juliean but that isn't two-timing since I'm not in a relationship with anyone yet. I just told Raffy that my dad bought me tickets to Ne-Yo's concert and that I'm going out with my friends.

Before Juliean and I met, I got a couple of things I need to do and it would be handful if I would state it one by one. To make the story short, I decided to meet Juliean that evening at Gateway. She was waiting for me in Taco Bell and of course, I was late. It was 7:30 p.m. then she told me that one of her friends, Shayne, would be coming too. It wasn't a big deal for me since my ticket was only for free c/o Juliean. We went to Starbucks Araneta to wait for her friend and she was asking me if I want something. I declined the offer because the ticket was enough and she does not need to spend more money on me. I had a couple of cigarettes too while we're waiting for Shayne and she arrived at around 8 p.m. Moving forward, we entered the dome and the artist we catch peforming was Kris Lawrence. There were a couple of artists who performed as well before Ne-Yo.

It was around 9:20 p.m. when Ne-Yo showed up and everyone was screaming and I was holding back because I was with Juliean and her friend. They weren't that interested in Ne-Yo and Juliean just watch it for me. Ne-Yo's dancers whom he calls them "sexy loves" was great and Ne-Yo's band as well. Well, that evening we find out that one of Omarion's song was composed by Ne-Yo and one of Rihanna's song with the lyrics "i don't want to do this anymore, I don't want to be the reason why..", Hate that I love you, Irreplaceable by Beyonce was his art as well. I recorded when Ne-Yo sang "Go On Girl" and I sang with it. It is my favorite song as of the moment. There's so much energy and fun that happened during that concert. "THIS IS MY FIRST TIME IN THE PHILIPPINES BUT DEFINITELY NOT THE LAST SO EXPECT ME TO BE BACK.", Ne-Yo shouted it to the audience and the crowd cheered for him. It was 10:30 p.m. when Ne-Yo left the stage and the people start to dispurse the dome.

Since Shayne and Juliean were hungry, we decided to eat at Oyster Boy, just across Araneta. We had squid, clam, and lechon kawali. I did not eat that much since I wasn't that hungry at all. After having a hearty meal, Shayne was fetched by some of their friends becuase they still have a gimik along Tomas Morato. Juliean and I left the place after Shayne had gone. We're in the same direction so Juliean and I went home together but she was the first one who left the public commuter vehicle. I stayed at our condo in P. Noval  Street along Espanya street and she's in Maceda Street along Espanya too. She stayed at her cousin's house and she thought of going home in the morning since she lives in Valenzuela.

I had a great time during Ne-Yo's concert and hanging out with Juliean. Thank you!

joesie

What does gender to do with having a relationship? Does it always got to be girl and boy relationship? Why are some people against girl to girl or guy to guy or in short same sex relationship? Whew! That was a handful of questions.

I HAVE BEEN WITH A GUY AND A GIRL RELATIONSHP, but don't get me wrong, not at the same time. Lol. The feeling is the same and the treatment  are great. The only difference is, when you're with a girl, in my case, there is more attention, they're sweeter, and they seem to understand me better. I'm not saying that guys aren't sweet and can't understand girls or me perhaps. Sometimes... just sometimes... GUYS TEND TO TAKE ADVANTAGE OF THE GIRLS (not through sex)! They make a lot of excuses and the word that we often hear from them is "SORRY!" They just say it for the sake of ending the argument but not fixing it so when it happens again, we get immune slowly and then what? END OF RELATIONSHIP. They don't even mean the word "sorry". WHEN YOU'RE WITH A GIRL, BOTH OF YOU ANALYZE THINGS but not all of this apply to those dike/bi/ or people who go into same sex relationship.

I know it's kind of unappropriate to share this so kindly excuse me (for the readers), but the hell this is my topic, I ALREADY HAD SEX WITH A GUY (of course) AND GIRL AS WELL. Everyone has RAGING HORMONES so whether it's a girl or a guy who starts to caress you, you get horny, isn't it? In my case, I'm not that kinky type of person except with my partner when I'm into a relationship. Making love with the same sex is extremely different but I'm liking the feeling, but why is it I still craves for a man's touch and his moves in the bed? You might think that I might not be satisfied with a girl then YOU'RE WRONG!

IF I HAD MADE LOVE WITH A GUY AND A GIRL, WHY CAN'T I MAKE LOVE WITH BOTH OF THEM AT THE SAME TIME? Honestly speaking, I WANT ALL THE ATTENTION MINE when I'm doing something kinky in the bed with someone. The other reason is, I like or (in special cases) LOVE the person I'm making out with. When you're having sex with someone you love (whether it's the opposite gender or the same gender), THE INTENSE IS HIGHER AND IT MAKES YOU MORE AGRRESSIVE! Havent' you felt it? Well, I did! I believe that having SEX IS DONE BY TWO PEOPLE WHO HAVE MUTUAL FEELINGS FOR ONE ANOTHER. But I don't want to close any doors, I'm still young and who knows, I MIGHT VENTURE INTO THOSE THINGS SOMEDAY!! 

HMMMMM....

joesie

I am a bi-sexual person and who cares?

Some people misunderstand my attitude, some get hurt by the way I talk, others get angry with how i stare. But what can I do if that's the real me?

SORRY...

I'M NOT PERFECT...

BUT DEFINITELY NOT FAKE!

So if you got any problems with me? DEAL WITH IT!

Actually there's nothing to do with me being bi-sexual and my attitude. It's just that some people base their judgement on what they hear (which is... do i need to emphasize more?.. RUMOR) and not they know!

At least I'm not pretending!!!!

joesie

I got this survey from one of the users of this site as well. Thanks for sharing this with me.

1. Introduce yourself.
I'm Joselle Andrea M. Credo. My friends calls me Joesie and some calls me Nana, Jojo, Andrea, and Selle. I live at Antipolo City. Lol.

2. It's Saturday at noon, where are you usually?
Just chiling at our house.

3. Who are the last four people to send you a text message?
Raffy, Tybes (Carline), Juliean, and Peter. Haven't checked my phone for the past 3 hours now.

4. What were you doing awhile back?
Playing Nintendo c/o Suzy.

5. What are you listening to right now?
98 degrees songs... the song playing now is Invisible Man.

6. Do you still watch MTV?
Sometimes.

7. You need a new pair of jeans, what store do you go first?
Dept. Store, People are People, and then Mango.

8. How do you feel?
Much better compared the past days since I was sick.

9. What time do you wake up for school/work?
4:45am but if I get lazy, I wake up like 7:00am.

10. Movie you last saw?
I forgot but Ivy and I are deciding to watch the movie Jumper.

11. Last for numbers of your cellphone.
I haven't notice that one.

12. Where are you?
In our sala, using my mom's laptop.

13. What side of the bed do you sleep on?
I got a small bed so I guess I sleep on both sides. Lol.

14. Do you like roller coasters?
Yeah.

15. What magazine(s) do you buy?
Candy, Maxim, and Vogue.

16. You went out today? Where?
No. I was supposed to but my friend backed out.

17. What do your pants look like?
Mostly jeans.

18. Do you own a watch?
 I get allergies if the accesories I wear are not real gold or silver. I envy those girls who can wear dangling earrings.

19. What are you thinking right now?
Why'd she had to go? *hint: the person I was referring to was one of my answers in number 3*

20. Are you paranoid?
Sometimes.

21. What is the dumbest thing you have ever done with your cellphone?
I accidentally dropped my cell phone on the toilet bowl. The bowl was clean but it was really gross.

22. What was the last thing you were invited to?
Nikki's house party.

23. What item should never be shared?
Toothbrush.

24. What do you usually order at Taco Bell?
Just the potatoes with the cheese and sour cream sauce on it.

25. Have you ever sat all the way through Gone with the Wind?
Not yet.

26. When was the last time you were up all night?
The last time Raffy and I talked on the phone over night. I guess it was last Monday.

27. Does drinking alcohol make you act more like your true self?
No. I don't really get drunk. Lol. Just ask Bhugel if you know her.

28. Where is your favorite place to be?
Anywhere as long as my friends are with me.

29. What do you think of girls wearing make up? I wear make up as well so I guess it makes you more girly but too much make up... oh dear... you got to check yourself in the mirror.

joesie

So what had really happened to me? I've been sick for 3 consecutive days and who's fault it is but mine. I've missed a lot of discussions and quizzes again and hopefully the professors would give me a make up for that since I will be having an "excuse letter" from my "parents."

It started when Ivy and I decided to meet at Legarda Station since we have the same departure time from our schools. She was kind of late because their professor won't let them get out of the room yet so I waited for her for about 30 minutes. That wasn't long, wasn't it? The moment she arrived, we decided to go to Gateway Mall in Cubao and invited the rest of the barkada.

We were shocked when we arrived at the mall because there were a lot of people wearing black shirt with Coke Zero logo on it and i guess there were 10 guys wearing all black with a black eye mask and black lipstick in the food court giving a free taste of Coke Zero. Ivy and I was given a free taste of Coke Zero and it tastes like Pepsi Max. (This is just my personal opinion) After having a sip of the new Coca-Cola product, we headed to Starbucks Araneta. The Starbucks outside Gateway near Volare restaurant and other restaurants/fastfood chains around Araneta Coliseum. To our surprise, there were a lot of people wearing Coke Zero shirt again and double the number or even 5 times the number of people wearing Coke Zero shirt inside the mall. We stayed in Starbucks for awhile and I treated my friend a mocha frapp and I had a caramel frapp. When we were enjoying our drinks and sharing stories with one another, we saw 5 big buses coming and inside those buses were people wearing Coke Zero shirt. We were shocked and it was quite hilarious, seeing a lot of people wearing the same shirt and we were thinking that we would be invaded by Coke Zero people. Because of our curiousity, we asked a few people wearing the Coke Zero shirt and they said everyone who was wearing that shirt works for Coca-Cola all over the nation and they were launching the Coke Zero product in Araneta Coliseum. That explains why and I realized that Coca-Cola company has a big number of workers. Just think about the crowd in UAAP finals especially when it's Ateneo vs De LaSalle, that's how plenty the people we saw wearing Coke Zero shirt.

After finishing our frapp and spending less than 3 hours in Starbucks, Ivy and I decided to stroll inside Gateway Mall and then after an hour we went to SM Cubao. It was just quite small so we didn't really spend much of our time but we bought Samba chocolates. We headed to Go Nuts Donuts and waited for Eunice to arrive since she was the first one to text back and Cheska as well. Some of our friends can't join us for some reasons they have. Eunice arrived 30 minutes or so and we ordered some donuts while waiting for Cheska. Cheska arrived as soon as we finished our donuts and we headed back to Gateway. We strolled for awhile and have some chitchat with one another. They ordered food in Taco Bell and I just had the potatoes with cheese and sour cream sauce on it. When we were done having our meals from Taco Bell, Cheska decided to treat us in Dairy Queen. I had the smallest cup of mud pie blizzard and they have their own flavors as well. While having our ice creams, we suddenly have this "trip" of teasing one of friends, Cheska, to those people who were passing by. There was this guy holding his cell phone and was looking for someone else and we were telling Cheska that it was her textmate and we started to laugh. The funny thing  was the guy was heading towards us then would go away from us and then go to our direction again. What added to the humor was Cheska started to get her cell phone out of her bag and made the scenario more funny. Ivy started to tell some joke including the Hip-Hop Abs instructional video where she was imitating one of the funniest part in it. We didn't notice the time but it was already 8:30pm.

Ivy and I had been together for 6-7 hours that day and if you notice everything I ate that day was sweets and I did not have any water at all. The next day, I started to have colds and during the night I started to have headaches until I got a fever which lead to my asthma. After being rested for 3 days, I feel so much better.